This afternoon Alex and I went to the doctor's to have my drain taken out...it was relatively painless and such a relief not to have it dangling at my side any more ... I now feel more on the road to recovery and normal albeit not so. Easier to move around...
I had some more conversations with different nutritionists around here but I am coming to the conclusion that I will be better off making my way back home sooner, via London so I can see some of my friends.
The boys need to get back to their lives and I am feeling antsy! I want to start the rest of my life!
I am also feeling my emotions a lot more and that always makes me wish to be home to feel safe. These days I am so reminded of what my mother went through all those years ago ...she shared so little and I honestly cannot imagine how she summoned up the courage and resilience to get through her similar ordeal on her own. I know she did not wish to dwell on it with me anyways, and I feel bad that I did not try harder to be there for her even if she pushed me away. Amazing how different we all are.
I'm off to bed again.
sima
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