Well ... less than a week ago I was walking around much the same as I had done for several decades, a woman sporting 2 breasts, as is the norm, be it an anxious woman unsure as to what may lie ahead... less than a month ago I was innocent of any knowledge about what was already brewing inside my body ... I could not have predicted where I stand today.
It has all happened so fast. I feel as if I have been swept up into someone else's story and now cannot extricate myself. I have had to make so many decisions so fast that I have not been able to prepare myself for this moment when I have to face the consequences of those decisions turned into action.
And yet something in me is also aware that maybe from long ago I have known about this moment. And maybe some of my life so far has been in preparation for this. Seems strange as I would not have chosen it this way and yet I feel I am in a place known to me on some other level.
The story goes like this: I was diagnosed with breast cancer a week ago, and I had a Simple Mastectomy on my left breast 4 days ago. The results were good in that the operation was successful, the cancer diagnosed in the main as DCIS with an area contained inside already turning invasive gradeII, the lymph nodes showed negative, and I have not been advised to do radiation or chemotherapy. I am waiting for results of blood test to see if I am a good candidate for hormone therapy with medication called Tamoxifen. I would then have to decide whether to to take this or not.
This blog is going to serve a very important purpose for me. It is going to be my story. It is going to record my journey into this next stage of my life which may be of interest to some of my friends and family and others. This particularly so as I intend to investigate and find all sorts of interesting and exciting ways of getting myself back into total health ...in the oncology language : to maximize my chances of NOT having a recurrence or metastasis. Every option oncology offers carries several sets of percentages attached to it in terms of survival chances as well as the various possible negative side effects to the rest of the body.
The options I propose to look into and get going with are going to be fun to learn and to engage with as well as being beneficial for the whole of me. No negative side effects for any other body parts and plenty of positive side effects for my mind and body as a whole. I may even learn things that will be of interest to my friends and family. How exciting!!
This is also a call for help or an open invitation to come in with your input. I would wholeheartedly appreciate comments on my findings/chosen paths as well as any input form any of you regarding stuff that you know about that might help me in my quest.
so here is the first posting on my brand new blog.
Sima
This is great for us to stay in touch with whatever you want to share of your reflections, Sima. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteYour first posting also shows how we as humans carry immense knowledge, often hidden in the shadows of our cave, and how, when we are exposed to life as it is, we have to go through pain on our path to freedom from the illusions that has made us hide this knowledge. I wish you all the best in your inquiry to find a new footing with more light on your path. I think the key is in the spirit of joy and honest inquiry you show in this post.
Lars
Clearheaded and as impartial as can be setting out on this journey.
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Well done dear Sima and thankyou for sharing your experience, from which we can all learn and be with you. Life throws us some really horrid curved balls and yet, as you so well say, if they happen in life then there is no reason why they don't happen to us as well as to others and whatever the event one's part is to make the most of life despite it. And interesting that you had this feeling of 'knowing' the experience as when Daniel died I had beforehand read this article about cot death which also somehow gave me a sense of 'knowing' that this sad thing might happen.
ReplyDeleteAnd so on to fun in this next stage, dear friend, not to rigidity but to seizing the day, enjoying life's joys and that can mean allowing oneself to feel tired, to feel sad and to taste the tears as it is in life's contrasts that we know those things that make us happy.
And let us know what more we can do for you too beyond the thoughts and blessings we are sending you. With much love Helenxx
Hello Dearest Heart, this is such a great idea, I am with you every step of this journey, in my willingness to support you I had to overcome my phobia and reluctance to this kind of sites... so here I am... much love & angel blessings... Tereska
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